The Unknown

I think some of the most terrifying things in life are what we are unaware of. Things that linger every corner or watch our every move, the things in hiding that wait to pounce. But the question is, if we don't know what it is how can it terrify us? Maybe it's because we're scared to what could happen, all the endless possibilities created from our never-ending imagination. As much as I'd like to say that one day we'll conquer the unknown there's an equal chance we won't. And maybe thats what makes life worth living; not knowing what to expect. Not knowing if tomorrow the love of your life will walk through the doors, or if you just purchased the winning lottery ticket, or even something as simple as the lucky jacket you lost last week will turn up. Life is full of surprises, good and bad, and it's up to us to make the choice of whether those surprises are worth waking up for in the morning, if those surprises are worth our breathe.

Silence

Have you ever been in the position where you never quite know how to word how you feel? Where you can't put your finger on what crazed emotions are running through your veins? When everything you say affects people around you so the easiest way to please them all in to stay silent? Maybe its just me but I try to keep all my thoughts in my head until I know for sure what I feel. I don't want to get caught up in feelings I'm not sure exist but I also don't want to confide in what I know I feel. Honestly, feelings are one of the most vague things in this world. They are so complex yet we sum them up into one word; sad, happy, upset, depressed. How can a universe of emotion be put into something so small, something we say everyday but never think twice about? I try not to say what I'm thinking until I know it's real but how do we get to that point? The point of knowing it's real? Do we say what we want even if it could give out false hope only to later crumble dreams or do we remain silent until we decide for ourselves? The only problem is, what if that silence lasts forever?

Decisions: Right from Wrong

What happens when you're stuck between two worlds? What repercussions occur from every decision you make? And what actions must you follow through on to prevent negative consequences? I've always been someone who finds their-self caught in two worlds, mostly it happens with relationships, friendships, family, but even our day to day lives can blur the lines of what we want and what we have. Unfortunately for the majority of the population we never quite get those two lines to intersect. But what happens when we start hurting the people we care about because we cannot make up our mind? Because we don't know what we want? Life is such a delicate thing, you only have it for a certain amount of days so why would we let ourselves settle for less than what we want? Is it because we don't think we deserve it? Because it feels impossible to achieve? Or because we just never know what we truly want? I think that we have to find those two lines and focus on which one is more important, whether it being what you want or have, maybe then we can make the right decisions.

A World of Beauty

I've always wondered is it possible to live in a world of make believe? In a world where princes defend their damsels and evil step mother's get locked away forever? In one way, I think we all live in a type of universe where whatever we want happens, unfortunately most of the time, it's just our dreams. We can always make our dreams become reality if we strive for it, but what if this world we live in suddenly turned into a place of beauty? A place people would want to be? A place ALL people would want to be? Perhaps it's impossible but maybe, just maybe we could make it happen. I try not to live in my head but that's where I go when I need to think, when I need to breathe. And maybe my head is full of typical fairytale stories, but to me thats a world that I would enjoy living in.

Reciprocating?

When we all begin to develop feelings for someone how do we know if they are reciprocating them back? To me, that's one of the most difficult steps when entering the world of a new relationship. Back in the 1950's a guy would walk up to a girl and say, "Damn Betty, you're a fox!" At that point it was obvious how he felt, he had the courage to say something completely outside of the box just to satisfy his curiosity. Modern day most people flirt with a group of people making it more difficult to decipher how they feel for you. So maybe we could ask? Maybe we could wait? Or maybe we could just walk up to them and kiss them? There are ways of finding out the truth, unfortunately situations like the last one don't happen too many times because we are all afraid. Humans are just simply, and easily afraid of rejection.

Faced With Reality

I'm a dreamer; plain and simple, but what happens when a dreamer is faced with reality? The fictional story line I once starred has become a dry, non fiction memoir. Someone close to me has recently opened my eyes to a new way of thinking, a new way of living. Unfortunately I am incapable of saying how I feel and I have become limited in how I can open up, but honestly, I've always had trouble with that. However, dreaming is something I am good at, but maybe too good. I slip into this unrealistic world that prevents me from feeling pain and loss, and in some ways it's helpful but in other cases it restricts us from seeing what's right there, in front of our eyes. I wish dreamers had the courage to say how they felt but unfortunately we continue to thrive in an imaginary world forcing people to the side lines. But what if there was one person that could change this world? Could change how we see everything and everyone? Would we be willing to sacrifice our fictional story line for one person?

Rules: To be Broken or Not to be Broken

I've always found the saying, "Rules are meant to be broken," strangely interesting. In one way it's the truth, we make rules to prevent people from continuing a previous action but some won't listen. In another aspect rules are just boundaries created to give the powerful ones confidence. Almost as though they feel better about themselves after destroying yet another freedom we all once had. Lately I've been fascinated with human reactions to rules. Basically we listen and we follow, almost as though we were trained to do so. BUT, when certain people decide to go against the grain, what in their mindset allows them to warp this knowledge all humans are dealt? I see rules as straight lines; they have no depth and lack theory but the people that disobey their own nature, their lines becomes waves and curves. They become 3-d, they become vivid.